Black and white photojournalistic, candid children's photography in Austin, TX

May 01, 2013  •  1 Comment

I couldn't figure it out. I'd lost my mojo. I was looking for something. Something to purchase? That's my default solution. I'm not doing it this time. A workshop? Lord, no. I've got magazine subscriptions I haven't read. I've subscribed to a photoshop group that I haven't once looked at. No. That isn't it.

Homework, A Study in Black and White Photography, Austin TX

Don't look at what other photogs are doing. That's the advice I'd heard so many times, so I don't. But I'm feeling like I've been sucked into a black hole. I'm in my own office--this is NOT a black hole! But I'm feeling increasingly disconnected--and from what, I don't even know. What I do know is I'm not going to find it thirty photos deep in photoshop.

So, what the hey. I look at the other photographer's work.  I don't know why, but I look. And I see it--I see what's missing. SHE was taking pictures of her own kids--the kind of pictures I used to take. She was seeing the light in the moment. That same light that I was walking hurriedly by. The light that I would turn away from because it would just mean more hours of post-processing. But that's not what I saw in her images. In those images, I saw my own missed moments.

I saw the reason I love photography. I love photography because I want so badly to hold onto the beauty of that moment. That evidence that my kid's were happy kids. That photo I can hold when I'm 80 and remember the warmth of my boy's neck, his giggle, his "Mommy, I want to be with you." I want that forever. 

So today, I vow to see the light again. I will see the way it reflects off the cheekbones and the nose and the fine little armhairs that I love. And I'll take the picture that will one day bring me back to these wonder years. 

 


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Torie Camp(non-registered)
So that's what you were talking about! :) Gorgeous!
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